Posts Tagged ‘tired’

A little over two days to go until the federal government will shutdown. Technically, because the house passed a 72-hour rule any budget that was to be voted on should have been presented by midnight last night (Tuesday). As of now, we, meaning the fed employees, haven’t heard that much from our higher ups about what’s going on. As we continue to pour through news articles, blogs, and posts, we have received one email from the Administrator today followed by a request from our immediate supervisors for our at home non work contact information. Even if there is a government shutdown, we’ll still have to come in Monday morning to get the official paperwork. So we’re basically waiting it out to see what happens.

In other news we finally finished level 1 of the 30 day shred… definitely can tell a difference since we started it, but now we’ll have to go from ground zero all over again because of moving to level 2. We were supposed to start this morning but we slept in- just feel really worn down today for some reason. I think we may just take today off from exercising- bad I know, especially because it appears to be sunny out, but sometimes you just need a break. We can start back into it tomorrow. I’d really like to continue with the working out in the morning (doing shred) and then going for a run in the evening– I have yet to be that awake/with it to do both of those things, but I would like to! Perhaps tomorrow I can try it out.

Tonight we’re doing burgers and roasted wedges- we had plain whole wheat pasta with artichokes and spicy tomato-basil sauce last night. Because I may be furloughed and we’re not sure for how long, we’ve planned out a budget in the event that I am not working for two weeks. I highly doubt we’ll go that long (fingers crossed) but we are prepared anyway. Setting up the budget together has been the best idea we’ve had so far– we have a joint emergency fund that makes me at least feel a lot  more comfortable about things. In addition, I have a separate savings account just to pay off my loan in June- I’ve been putting money into it (including my tax returns and what not). I should be ok paying it off– it’s $3500… eeks! But once it’s gone, I will have less than $3000 in student loans left. AWESOME! Of course if I go back to school I’ll probably need a loan- I wish I wouldn’t, but probably will. blah- loans are overrated! I’m hoping that I can get my work to pay for a class or two in the upcoming year but we’ll have to see how it goes.

Ok, short post today :0)  I’ll catch you later!


Well, I didn’t make it to the gym today. Blah. My alarm went off at 5:30AM, I felt like crap and I hit the snooze button over and over until 6:30. Funny thing is, I got up at 6:30. Not to go to the gym, just to get up. I took a shower, I got ready for work, I probably would have had time to make breakfast! Argh- I think I got up because I felt guilty about missing the gym. To make up for it, I took my running gear; pants, shirt, under armor, watch, heart rate monitor, new sneakers… the whole shabang to work with me. My thought? I can squeeze in a work out in the afternoon- I mean, I’m going to have to stay late anyway!

Here I sit 13.5 hours later, at my desk at home. Dinner is cooking, I left work at 7:15PM, I didn’t make it to the gym. My knees and ankles are sore, my brain is tired, and my throat is full of glass. I’m spent. I feel like I don’t have time for anything these days— and what’s worse, it’s already 8:45PM! By the time I eat dinner, it will be past my bedtime! I didn’t even get a chance to eat lunch today. oh whoa is me! haha.

As a result of not going to the gym this morning, I have decided to give something up for Lent even though I don’t celebrate it.. sort of as punishment. Drum roll please…. I am giving up Chinese Food. That’s right, for 40 days I will refrain from ordering Chinese food. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to do it, but I must. Something needs to change and I need to get my butt to the gym.

Dinner tonight- Burgers and roasted brussel sprouts. Delicious.

Gym: 1 Meghan: 0

Round II. ding ding ding

Coming back from ankle surgery sucks. That’s all there is to it. To know that about a year ago I was running 10 miles with no problem is completely frustrating… but that’s life, right? My surgeon joked with me and told me that by the time I got the screws, new ligaments and patched tendon in there, I would be winning races. Such a good guy.

Last night we ran about 1.5 miles and by ran, I mean jogged. It hurt. My muscles are so stiff and weak from not using them for so long. I still can’t wear any type of wedge or heal for longer than about an hour. I still have to take my arthritis meds every night and sometimes it hurts so bad that I still can’t sleep despite the powerful “sleepiness” embedded in my anti-inflammatory pills. Sometimes, I want to quit.

Always when I think I’m going to quit and I’m ready to throw in the towel, I take a deep breathe and a step back and say to myself, no. I have come so far. Who would have thought that three years ago I could go from not running AT ALL to running a half marathon in a matter of 4 months? Not me. ever. But you know what? I did it! I ran it and I got a great time and I never felt better.

So today, despite being frustrated with my body and the backwards steps it seems to have sprinted over the past year through surgery and recovery, I know I can do it. I will prove to myself that anything is possible with a little determination. So..

I signed up for a 5K on December 12th. I will run all of it and I will run it with jingle bells tied to my shoes and my best holiday costume and I will do it to raise money for Arthritis. No matter how hard it gets, I know that so many people have it worse, including my boyfriend’s soon to be sister-in-law. She was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis in her mid-20s. She is an inspiration to me, I love her and I’m going to do this for me, for her and for everyone else who ever wanted to finish a race.

This is me before my Marathon in November 2008